grateful

life is changing pretty quickly these days. it’s like the quickening of the self. life bounding forward in giant leaps. not hurtling forward with reckless speed, but bounding with big tall legs in a way that defies gravity. there is a lightness to it, a newness, and although life is turning out very different from my original starting point i’m eager for where i’ll end up. i’m scared and nervous about the unknown but i’m eager still because adventures are always exciting. if nothing else, they make for good stories.

so often we sit down for breakfast, we collect our thoughts, our warm tea, our kitty masks, our trucks, our drippy yogurt or warm oatmeal. we sit. and the light shines down, it lays across the table in angles that reveal the dust and the dirt, but all i see is the love and the beauty. and all i feel is grateful.

life is moving forward and our mornings like this will soon disappear. the ease, the freedom, the mellow will be replaced with a bit of hurry of places to go and timeclocks to meet. it’s making me sit with this month and take notice of all that i have had, all these mornings with river in the light when we both are beautiful in our morningness in our grumpiness in our overtiredness in our awakening to life. 

i’m thankful for all that was given, all that was taken, all that was offered and denied to give us this. this space together each morning. it was a beautiful gift to us.

this month i’ll be taking a photo a day, in part to cherish this time, but in part to help me find it other places too. i’m so grateful for what i’ve had with river, staying home with him for these past three years. it’s a wonderful foundation, a wonderful platform from which to leap.

We’re both just one too many mornings
An’ a thousand miles behind.

~ Bob Dylan