today i left the bookstore with my arms full. i wanted her to ask why i was buying four of the exact same magazine. but she didn’t. so i offered up my reasoning because i could no longer keep it to myself. “a photo of mine was published in this magazine.” she glanced at me in her ho-hum way of tedium that comes with full time work and the christmas rush on a sunday afternoon. “that’s great.” she said and asked me if i wanted a bag. i couldn’t hide my pleasure. it sprung from my heels as i headed for the door.
lighter. i feel lighter.
and somehow more complete.
i walked out of there with my camera slung over my shoulder like it always is, like some cheesy gunslinger pacifist because i bring it with me everywhere ‘just incase’ something catches my eye which it usually does, and then if i need to make a stop somewhere i can’t seem to leave it alone in my car. i can’t help it. i’m the hovering mother. i’m the shoulda woulda coulda woman.
it’s my only possession.
it’s my best friend.
my third eye.
today i was walking down a sidewalk with both arms full of photo love and a shit eating grin spreading across my face. a smile so big i almost didn’t recognize the feeling. those muscles have been hibernating, too scared to come out and see the light of day. those muscles finally pulled around my mouth and i let myself be happy. i let it out in a big ol grin cause i’m doing it, whatever it is, i’m doing it right now. and it feels really good. and i’m happy.
Happy looks wonderful on you
How satisfying that must be!
Congratulations! I remember that picture in the online edition, but I just inadvertently stumbled on your blog yesterday through some other blog. Small e-world!
Isn’t it funny how our happiness does tend to hibernate? And, we don’t realize it until something like this comes along. I hope your happiness lingers for a very long time. You deserve it! I love your photography!
congratulations on the publication!!!
Happiness never dies. It just goes underground. Congratulations, Meredith!
happy looks good on you! so so so good.
i am SO happy for you.
i hop you smile so much it hurts .
Which month is it? I need to go buy a copy!
thanks for the love everyone!!
and aimee, it’s the december issue of JPG magazine, on shelves now. (Faith issue #19) and as always, there’s a ton of great photography in there to inspire me to do more.
Congrats and well deserved!
i see that smile.
many congratulations.
so much to come for you…
Yay you! Hope you’re swaggering a bit as you walk. You deserve it…
xox
how wonderful to see your own work there ~you described the feelings so well…don’t come down…keep using those muscles!
Yeah! Well done friend!
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Congratulations – I love the cupcake/sky!
YAHOO!
Congratulations – on the photo, the happy and the doing *it*
Meredith,
You are such a bright and shiny talent. I hope that some of you will rub off on me just by proximity.
I’m really happy for you. You deserve a year filled with light, love, good!
How exciting! I’d be grinning from ear to ear too. My compliments to you and your fabulous photo!
WOOHOO!! So deserved, I adore that shot. I wonder if I can get a copy here…now that would be something. I’ll tell the lady at the counter that one of my dearest friends has her picture published in it!
awesome! congrats, mama, you deserve this!
congrats!!
What a wonderful smile you have…it is nice to see it spread across you face!
Why is it my first response to swear whether good or bad. But f’T that rocks! Wow. I’m left dizzy. How freaken awesome.
yay! congrats to you. i love that photo.
Congratulations!! If I were the sales lady I would’ve CELEBRATED with you!!!
FANTASTIC.
Congrats, Meredith!
Congratulations.
Wow, great picture – and great picture of you with said picture.
Here from Ordinary Art, who positively gushed about you, and was right. Congrats on the publication. If I had been working the bookstore, I would have asked.
I see you got in just in time, as JPG have folded. So sad! I was just going to subscribe!
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