me, happy.

By camerashymomma

me-happy

today i left the bookstore with my arms full. i wanted her to ask why i was buying four of the exact same magazine. but she didn’t. so i offered up my reasoning because i could no longer keep it to myself. “a photo of mine was published in this magazine.” she glanced at me in her ho-hum way of tedium that comes with full time work and the christmas rush on a sunday afternoon. “that’s great.” she said and asked me if i wanted a bag. i couldn’t hide my pleasure. it sprung from my heels as i headed for the door.

lighter. i feel lighter.
and somehow more complete.

i walked out of there with my camera slung over my shoulder like it always is, like some cheesy gunslinger pacifist because i bring it with me everywhere ‘just incase’ something catches my eye which it usually does, and then if i need to make a stop somewhere i can’t seem to leave it alone in my car. i can’t help it. i’m the hovering mother. i’m the shoulda woulda coulda woman.

it’s my only possession.
it’s my best friend.
my third eye.

today i was walking down a sidewalk with both arms full of photo love and a shit eating grin spreading across my face. a smile so big i almost didn’t recognize the feeling. those muscles have been hibernating, too scared to come out and see the light of day. those muscles finally pulled around my mouth and i let myself be happy. i let it out in a big ol grin cause i’m doing it, whatever it is, i’m doing it right now. and it feels really good. and i’m happy.

me-published

30 Responses to “me, happy.”

  1. flutter Says:

    Happy looks wonderful on you

  2. wrongshoes Says:

    How satisfying that must be!

  3. Grey Street Girl Says:

    Congratulations! I remember that picture in the online edition, but I just inadvertently stumbled on your blog yesterday through some other blog. Small e-world!

    Isn’t it funny how our happiness does tend to hibernate? And, we don’t realize it until something like this comes along. I hope your happiness lingers for a very long time. You deserve it! I love your photography!

  4. jaymee Says:

    congratulations on the publication!!!

  5. elizabeth Says:

    Happiness never dies. It just goes underground. Congratulations, Meredith!

  6. kristin Says:

    happy looks good on you! so so so good.
    i am SO happy for you.
    i hop you smile so much it hurts .

  7. Aimee Greeblemonkey Says:

    Which month is it? I need to go buy a copy!

  8. camerashymomma Says:

    thanks for the love everyone!!

    and aimee, it’s the december issue of JPG magazine, on shelves now. (Faith issue #19) and as always, there’s a ton of great photography in there to inspire me to do more.

  9. Danielle Says:

    Congrats and well deserved!

  10. kristy Says:

    i see that smile.

    many congratulations.

    so much to come for you…

  11. jag Says:

    Yay you! Hope you’re swaggering a bit as you walk. You deserve it… :-)
    xox

  12. ELK Says:

    how wonderful to see your own work there ~you described the feelings so well…don’t come down…keep using those muscles!

  13. Andie Says:

    Yeah! Well done friend!
    a.

  14. Teresa Says:

    Congratulations – I love the cupcake/sky!

  15. Jena Strong Says:

    YAHOO!

  16. Vick Says:

    Congratulations – on the photo, the happy and the doing *it* :)

  17. conversemomma Says:

    Meredith,

    You are such a bright and shiny talent. I hope that some of you will rub off on me just by proximity.

    I’m really happy for you. You deserve a year filled with light, love, good!

  18. Jamie Says:

    How exciting! I’d be grinning from ear to ear too. My compliments to you and your fabulous photo!

  19. Hay Says:

    WOOHOO!! So deserved, I adore that shot. I wonder if I can get a copy here…now that would be something. I’ll tell the lady at the counter that one of my dearest friends has her picture published in it!

  20. Mothering Two Says:

    awesome! congrats, mama, you deserve this!

  21. deezee Says:

    congrats!!

  22. Lucy Says:

    What a wonderful smile you have…it is nice to see it spread across you face!

  23. Erin Says:

    Why is it my first response to swear whether good or bad. But f’T that rocks! Wow. I’m left dizzy. How freaken awesome.

  24. simplyblogged Says:

    yay! congrats to you. i love that photo.

  25. michelle Says:

    Congratulations!! If I were the sales lady I would’ve CELEBRATED with you!!! ;)

  26. slouching mom Says:

    FANTASTIC.

  27. Kelly Says:

    Congrats, Meredith!

  28. deb Says:

    Congratulations.

  29. Sus @ wiggle rooms Says:

    Wow, great picture – and great picture of you with said picture. :) Here from Ordinary Art, who positively gushed about you, and was right. Congrats on the publication. If I had been working the bookstore, I would have asked.

  30. Hay Says:

    I see you got in just in time, as JPG have folded. So sad! I was just going to subscribe!

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