i awoke with a start at 3:30am
sometimes the worry seeps in when love is far away. when transitions shift us into new dynamics that stretch the boundaries we once found so comfortable. stretching is good, i know this. it never gets easier, though. i never become as flexible as i hope to be. this is my momma heart that wakes me and forces me outside into the arms of birdsong.
the light is purple at 3:30am
as i stepped out into the early hours of morning, the bats darted and flew about sporadically. i bore witness to the chaos, held it close, and let it go. i am constantly amazed at the strength of the heart. of what we are capable of experiencing without imploding upon ourselves. i’m always somewhat amazed by the human spirit.
i told myself i would write more this summer. i would let it out (and by doing so, i would let it in.)
early next week i’ll find myself down south in the heat and humidity. looking into the face of a mother, a reflection of my self, a hand to hold, the daughter she knows by name. i’m not sure yet how that will be but i’m putting on my brave face and keeping those things i hold dear very close to my heart.
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during the last session of NOW YOU i began dabbling with scanography. the above image was the result of words that would not come, it’s now part of a photographic series. if you’re interested in learning more about the self portrait process, there are just a few spots left in our summer class (this is the last week registration will be open) you never know, you just may stumble upon a process that helps heal you as it does me.












This post reminds me of this – http://www.gratefulness.org/poetry/peace_of_wild_things.htm
I love that poem.
May you hold gently and lovingly the tenderness of both your mama and your daughter hearts. Your spirit is beauty to behold. Good luck.
Love and light as this familiar part of the world opens its arms to you again. Xxooxxoo. Let me know if you need anything.
I really, really loved reading this story because just last week I was outside at around the same time listening to the birds sing and when I read your words I feel like I’m not alone. Thank you. (Tracie)
Your words and your image are very moving to me. Thinking of you in this time of change, love, loss and resilience.