it’s 6am. we have no heat in the house. this is the first of four layers i put on.

5 years ago today it was cold. and there was a fire crackling in the woodstove while wood was being chopped outback to replenish our supply.

5 years ago today i baked cupcakes and i could not possibly foresee the events that would bring us to where we are now.

5 years ago today i wore this same black tank top at 6am when i went into labor. what would prove to be 20 hours of back labor to a posterior baby. 20 hours of labor that resulted in the homebirth of a 9lb 11oz baby boy.

5 years ago today i did not expect any of the events that followed his birth.

now i expect the unexpected.
and i know that a warrior lives inside of me.