shadows of reality

today, here and now, i have no words. nothing of happiness or laughter. not for the long walk down the hallway of goodbye. maybe one day i’ll have words. but for now, i’m sitting with the silence and shadows and bits of light that reflect on water. i’m a big girl now. i tuck my mom into bed. i kiss her goodnight. and she smiles up at me like a child.

when fears and sadness and truth become reality, there’s nothing left to be afraid of.
certainly not shadows in the dark.
i love you, mom. i know you know this.

When the dream came
I held my breath with my eyes closed
I went insane,
Like a smoke ring day when the wind blows
Now I won’t be back till later on
If I do come back at all
But you know me, and I miss you now.

In a strange game I saw myself as you knew me
When the change came,
And you had a chance to see through me
Though the other side is just the same
You can tell my dream is real
Because I love you, can you see me now.

Though we rush ahead to save our time
We are only what we feel
And I love you, can you feel it now.